Sunday, June 26, 2011

Obladi Obladah

Probably didn't spell it right, but the next line is "life goes on." I suppose I have been getting behind here and have some pictures to upload. Jackson and Pete are still at church waiting to get into the bishop's office because Jackson is getting baptized on July 9. I can't believe the difference of where we were 8 years ago to where we are now.

Lately though, especially when the boys were in Lewiston visiting Pete's mom, with the extra time I have had to think, I have just had the blues. I don't understand, I can't explain. I just feel like I am breaking inside. It makes no sense to me. Even when things were bad for Pete, I wasn't feeling sorry for myself.

I don't generally throw myself a pity party, but I cannot seem to shake it. I don't think the things on my mind help but they certainly aren't the cause. I know a couple things I should do that might help, but right now I am just trying to get it out. I can't wait to get back into school again in classes that stimulate my mind. I think that will help.

I need to work on my spiritual side some more. Let's face it, no one is perfect we all need work. Sometimes its just hard to dig deep and do what I want and need to do.

I find this so ironic. Here I want to be a clinical psychologist and I am feeling depressed. I truly believe in the power of therapy and talking it out. So here I am, getting it out. I have other resources to dig deeper. Today was just hard and I don't why.

Friday, June 3, 2011

Time for the I feel guilty I haven't posted much blog

That is probably a mouthful. I will eventually get the Disneyland pictures up, but you can likely find them on my facebook page.

School is officially over for the boys, so most days it is just them and me hanging out here taking care of things. I know why parents get kids involved in as many activities as possible. They don't want to be driven nuts.

Wyatt has officially learned how to ride a bike (thanks David!). My brother-in-law David and Wyatt were both bored so David helped him learn how to ride. We had one glorious crash, but Wyatt got bandaged up and got back on the bike. He was a little skittish on his take offs and stops but now he is fearless and is enjoying this new freedom a little too much. Jackson still isn't sure of himself but we are working on it.

Jackson is going to be 8 on July 6 and that means he is old enough to be baptized. He will be getting baptized on July 9 at 6pm. I think he has Pete convinced to baptize him which is so incredible to me. One of the things I thought would never be able to happen. I stand all amazed at the little things that have changed in Pete since this adventure began. If it is at all possible to be grateful for an illness that took so much out of us, I am grateful for what it has given us. It is true, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and in the same sentence brings a whole new set of challenges. I guess it would be pretty boring if we weren't challenged.

We will probably be moving at the end of the summer, but the door is very much open to coming back to this area. I feel like there is a need here for the profession I have chosen. I hope to be able to help in this area. I have two semesters to gain my second degree and then I want to go to grad school. The issue here is where I need to go. I hope I can have a program at Idaho, but I am not sure if this is possible. I will have to look at my options when I am where the advisors are.