Monday, November 12, 2012


Since I have five minutes I will give a quick update.

C-section is scheduled for Feb 15 at like 7:30 in the morning at the St. Luke's on Eagle road for those that want to know.

Had a great birthday weekend spending time with my family in Utah. Glad Chelsea scheduled Amber's blessing that weekend. I wanted an excuse to go anyway.

Boys are good. WE are trying to get Jackson just a little help in school so we can quit battling his teacher. Long story.

Classes are going alright, I hope I have a handle on this. Semester is winding down. Want it to end so I can crochet and read on evenings LOL! that and spend time with my boys.

Love you!

Sunday, September 2, 2012

I will be back!

Honestly I haven't had much time to actually blog. Also haven't figured out what to blog. Boys have started school as have I. I am working and Pete is looking. We are just pretty busy doing our thing. I spend most evenings listening to lectures online.
I love reading about your lives, but honestly have to get myself organized to get everything done.

If you haven't heard, we are expecting a baby due February 20th. I will be sure to share what we are having when we find out.

Have a great labor day weekend!

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Sitting alone in an empty house.

I miss my boys! They have been visiting Pete's mom since the 24th of June. We sent them there so she could have time with them and we could move. Its a good thing too, I might not have had room for boys. Anyway, I missed Jackson's birthday, which is a first and that made me sad. I try to be brave, but it only gets me so far.

I started work last week. It is so weird to be working again. I am already worrying about what my boys are going to do without me. Pete doesn't have a job yet, but I am still worrying about who will take care of my boys without me, especially when classes start up. I will make myself nuts.

I like feeling needed at my job. My boss likes me, she hired me because I worked for her before. I just sent her an email to see if she had anything and she found something. This was part of the reason we had to move. She needed me here for today and then needed me a week sooner.

Anyway, I got a text from Jackson's primary teacher in Ririe today. She wanted my address to send him some cards because they didn't get to say goodbye. She reminded me of something I sometimes forget.

I worry a lot about Jackson being so busy. I worry that he will get on people's nerves. I worry they won't like him. I forget just how special he is sometimes. Anyway I had thanked her for her patience with his busy self and he reminded me "He is busy, but he is so caring and loving. He taught me more than I taught him. And I really appreciated him for that."

I guess in the worry and the keeping him out of things and the frustration, I forget to see my boys sweet spirits and remember how caring and loving they really are. I get the good and the bad, and forget so often to enjoy the good. I need to do more of that. Anyway, her text touched me and reminded me what great kids I have. I think having them away has helped me appreciate them more too. I am sure I will be ready for bedtime the first day they are back, but at least I will get a big hug first.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

overdue update

Well, greetings from Nampa! I am way overdue for this update. I am tired. We just got moved from my mom's house. It was a long challenge for all of us, especially mom and dad. After all that craziness, I have a job, and I have one class to take before I can find out about grad school. Trying for the counseling program at the University of Idaho, Boise center. I started work on Tuesday, covering for someone until my job actually starts on Monday.

We have most of the boxes unpacked and finally got internet hooked up. Pete has been doing most of the heavy lifting. The boys are with his mom right now, it has been good to not have them underfoot during the move, but I miss them. They will be home soon.

Okay, so my brain is freezing and I will have to post more later.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

We are loved!

This week I have had two experiences that have confirmed once again that I am loved and I am blessed. I will go into details later, but they both point to the move to Boise as being the right move for us. I know things will work out. Sometimes I think we just need those little reminders that God is aware of us and remembers us. I am so grateful for mine this week. They both gave me a great boost of confidence.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

A shot in the arm

I got a letter today from the program director in Boise. She told me about an assignment from the class I am taking this summer as a prerequisite. She wants me to do it early so we can push my application through faster. A little confirmation that I needed. :)

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

How many times?

How many times does everything have to go wrong before we learn? How many times do we have to face the same trials? I really wish I could figure out what we need to learn, I am sick of this trial. I want to be self-sufficient and self-reliant. Hope peeks around the corner, but the path is anything but hopeful. It is just one wrong thing after another.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

End of Semester

I love it! I have a 4.0 since the first time since high school! I am jazzed. It gives me a boost going into grad school. This is my little party!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Grad School Adventure

I have been spending the last couple weeks trying to get myself together to get into grad school. I have some more things to do and nothing will be official until after I take a prerequisite class, but it looks hopeful and feels right. I have been talking to the program director in Boise through email and she is really going to bat for me. This gives me a lot of hope though I am not trying to count chickens before they hatch.

Since I wasn't quite able to raise my GPA quite high enough it is possible to be admitted as a provisional student. If I can continue with the way the last few semesters have been going, I should be fine. I am hopeful and this move to Boise feels right. It feels guided. I am grateful for that. It is amazing to me the love and guidance that I feel right now. It helps so much to know that someone is helping to get you where you need to be. It is also interesting the little nudges you get as a course correction. Hopefully we will be able to move during June. It will be nice to be near Kassidy while she is going through her last two years of high school.

Thursday, April 26, 2012


SO apparently we said Never once again. We were never going to move to Boise. Currently this is our goal and plan. There is a masters program I am trying to get into and it is available in Coeur d'Alene and Boise. Tried for CDA but it turns out Boise is more flexible to what I need. The program director was much more helpful and It is something I can apply for now and get in for this fall. Its crazy and scary and a little amazing. I just didn't think this was our answer and I was trying for Grad school in a year after I took my GRE. This program doesn't require it. Boise would get us closer to Kass and we would be able to be around for her last two years of college. It is about halfway between my mom and Pete's. A little out of our comfort zone, but that is how you grow, right? Currently just a plan but we are working on it and will need to be there by July right after Jackson's birthday. Fingers crossed, Prayers and all that for things to work out. It is time to be our own family again and be able to move on without our crutches. Scary and exciting.

Friday, March 16, 2012

Just have too much on my mind...

Its funny my mind is full of a million things running around in my head. Yet, I can't find the words I need or even the desire to express them.

1) There are good things, I have been working out more. I have been working out with the wii using the biggest loser challenge game. I have seen more inch loss than weight, but with the changes in diet, I am hoping. I have walked three miles about three times in this last week with Kari. That has been good and hurt good. I am able to do more now without getting as winded.

2) We have been stressing with Jackson. He has been having some challenges that have become more prevalent in the last year. We took him to a mental health service for children and got a diagnosis of ADHD. There was some suspicion of the Autism Spectrum. If there is any of that, it would be on the low end. He was initially tested by a social worker, which is fine since they are qualified counselors, I guess. Anyway, I have been waiting to get him in to see an actual Psychologist or Psychiatrist. They set up an appointment with another mental health facility. I was sure we were going to see a doctor. It was for some more testing. WHAT A JOKE! Another Social Worker. No... Not happening.

My mom had been suggesting I take Jackson to see her Chiropractic Neurologist. I gave in, mostly to appease her. I felt listened to, They gave me a logical reason for what was going on, They also thought that they might be able to help, and they let Jackson touch everything without irritation. I am hoping this is the path we are supposed to take. I have a hard time knowing.

3) I actually wrote a longer post the other day. I have it saved on a word document. I don't think it was very nice, but there you have it. Pete's second wife has been trying off and on to get him to give up custody of his daughter, Katelyn. He and I have no idea how to respond to that. He hasn't seen her in nearly ten years. We knew sometimes she was in the same town and her mother never let Pete know she was there. I would have stayed out of the picture if it meant he got to see his daughter. She doesn't seem real at this point. This is a real no win situation. I won't claim he is blameless entirely, but he has paid his child support and had no real way of getting a hold of her, especially when they would move and not tell him where they were. Its a complicated situation, and it is hard for me to go into without being mad.

Monday, March 12, 2012


Thumper, from Bambi, had a saying - " If you can't say something nice, don't say nuttin' at all." I am really trying not to say something not nice, so I don't blog as of late. I will blog about what is going on in our lives soon. Right now I have some rage and some things I would like to say to someone to give them a piece of my mind. Unfortunately, I am in a biased position and she probably wouldn't listen anyway.

What I will say is I am here to support my husband in any way I can and I hate to see others make him hurt.

Sunday, February 5, 2012

When all you can see on your plate is what you don't like...

We were sitting at dinner tonight. Jackson wasn't liking something I put on his plate. At that moment he couldn't see the things on his plate that he liked. I commented on this and mom said, "We all do that. When something is going wrong in our lives, we can't see what is going right so everything in our life seems bad." It is so true. When life happens all you can see is what is going wrong. I guess that is why we are told to count our blessings.

Pete bought me a framed thought for Christmas. It said - "We should certainly count our blessings, but we should also make our blessings count." - Neal A. Maxwell

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

When it rains...

Okay so since the other job fell through I tried to hold on to my job at the school. Unfortunately enrollment dropped and they don't have the enrollment to keep me. This bites. That is probably the nicest way I know how to say it.

On another note....

Well related...

I told Wyatt I could take him to school tomorrow. He asked me why. I told him I didn't have a job anymore. He said, "You passed?" Leave it to a six year old to give you a little perspective.

Monday, January 30, 2012

Cancel that last post.

So my job turned out to be a bust. I am unable to carry my own professional liability insurance and that is what this company requires, therefore I don't have the job anymore. I am hoping this is for the best and that something really great will come along but I am losing heart over the matter. I just need one break. Something that will hold us so we can be independent again. I understand trials and everything like that, but this one feels so ongoing! Keep on keeping on I guess.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Long time no post...

So its been awhile. I am not even sure anyone is reading.

So the news.

I will be done with my job at Falls Valley Elementary on January 31. It is the first job I have left voluntarily since I left the copy center on the University of Idaho campus. I am excited for the next move. I will be working for Sullivan Mental Health Services in Idaho Falls. I am completely excited. I will be a PSR (Psycho-social Rehabilitation) Specialist. I will be starting with 2 clients but even that will give me at least what I am making now. The growth opportunities are great and it is right along the lines of what my goals are. I also have one person to give me a letter of reccomendation for grad school. This is starting to form into a real goal and a real plan. Maybe this will work out afterall. I know it is what I am supposed to do, it has to work out, right?

Pete and the boys are good. We spent most of the last couple of weeks with the Jetta in the shop. Boy isn't that fun?