Sometimes I feel like I am drowning.

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The last week or so I swear I feel like I am drowning. I can't keep my head above water and am starting to feel a little depressed. I know the stress of this is showing in the way I treat everyone and I really don't like that trait in myself right now. The money issue is just starting to show. I need a job, I do but I don't even know where to start. I find it hard to do the things i need to do around here. I would love if we could have our own place again, but I would like to stay in this ward. I just don't know what to do right now. I feel like I am drowning. I don't know what I am doing anymore since I am not having to watch Pete so closely. HELP!!!!! I have bills piled up that I have no idea how I will pay. I just need to find me again and I don't know how. I need things to be okay like I know they will. Just having a hard time being patient.

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Missy! said…
Sorry things are so difficult for you; don't forget to read your scriptures and pray; ask for the help you need and keep your eyes, ears, and heart open for answers.

Good luck.
November 17, 2009 at 6:49 PM
Devri said…
Pretend that mom's house is yours. Take some pride in it and some stewardship. Take the boys out and rake the leaves. Keep it as clean as you can. Just settle in until things get better. If you turn her house into your home (not in the sense that you start making permanent changes), it will help a lot. Work helps immensely with feelings of despair. Until you find a regular job, be a homemaker, which is one of the best jobs ever. Plus, you'll feel great when you see some stress taken off Mom's shoulders!
November 19, 2009 at 2:06 PM
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