Hope springs anew.

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I have hope again. I never really lost it but when you wait and wait for something and it doesn't come it can be frustrating especially when you are dependent on it for other things.

I finally have an interview at EICAP. It has been a long wait for a job possibility that changed many of our plans. That change has caused frustration on all sides so I think we are all looking for a little hope of better things to come.

Its not so much my faith being tested right now as my patience. Its a tough thing living with family. Its a blessing and a challenge. It tests your boundaries and makes for new relationship dynamics that were never there before.

Roles are not as defined. C'est la vie! C'est l'amour!

I am in four psychology classes so at the end of four introductory chapters I can officially say I am tired of the conditioned response of Pavlov's dogs. If only I had the patience to condition my children so well.

School starts on Thursday. It is so weird that it is starting this late. I need them to be in school so it is easier for me to work on my school. My goal for this school year is get up at six, shower, get them up and stay up and work on what I need to work on whether it is going to work or reading textbooks. Maybe it will work.

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Taryn said…
Oh sister. I'm glad you got your interview. And I'm glad you have hope again. Life sucks when you don't have any hope. Good luck sister!
September 6, 2011 at 4:01 PM
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